College

Just thinking about it already makes me nervous.

Again, I'm not American, nor do I live in the US, but I aim desperately to go to college there.
Why? Well, I think part of me has some sort of trauma from attending crappy schools all my life. I lived and live in a small city, and the best school here is actually awful. It is really disappointing to see the level of my classmates and most of my teachers. Not that I think I'm super smart and special and all, but I'll leave modesty aside and say that in fact I am an intelligent girl. And I like to be challenged to learn more and achieve greater things. How much challenge can I get from being the top student in my class without even trying to?
So, all my life I dreamed of studying somewhere filled with intelligent students and super qualified teachers and professors. Well, I couldn't actually afford boarding school in Switzerland (nor would my dad let me go if somehow I could pay for it), so I really, really, reeeeeeally want to attend an amazing university.
Ok, ok, there are tons of great universities all over the world, you'll say. Yes there are, even some in my country, so why the US? No, I'm not one those foreigners absolutely astonished by the United States, who think there is world's best place or anything like that (even because I prefer Europe very much =P). But I happen to want for my future, a careen in filmmaking. So, THE place for film is the USA. Therefore, that's where I want to go.

NYU: my dream university. Ok, super super suuuuper hard to get into The Tisch School, I know that. That's why I have a few backup schools I'll apply to as well. But I won't stop dreaming and working my ass out to reach my dream.

BUUUUT, the whole "American-college-application" isn't the only thing that stresses me when it comes to the "University" subject.
My parents want me to try for an university from my country too. For me that's useless, since I so don't want to go to college here. And, here the university system is a bit different. College isn't very "opened" when it comes to majors. For a start, you choose it in the moment you register for a test you take in order to get into college (that's another difference: there is no "application". It's ALL based on this test.). Also, you don't have so many majors options, and also you can go to some schools that would be Graduate Studies in the US right after high school here, like medical or law school.
So basically, I have no idea what to register for, since there is no Film Production in the only University here that I'll try for (not that I really want to get into, but I'll probably take one semester before going to an american college, because school year starts way earlier here. That is, IF I get into any american college)

Geez, that post is so fucking confusing.
Probably no one will read it, anyway.
But it was good for relieving myself!! I figure it's great just to open your mind on something upsetting you, even if its only for a computer and no person will read.
=P